It Taunted Me All Day Long
It’s rare. It’s incredibly rare for one song, the same song (and not just different versions of it) to come up on my shuffle no less than four times in one day.
Were the World Mine dvdrip Yesterday, it happened.
Yesterday, I was supposed to listen to “This Year’s Love” by David Gray. I have no idea why, but it kept popping up and I kept ignoring it. When things like that happen to me, I’ve learned to pay attention, because, usually I’m missing the bigger picture on some lesson that I should be taking to heart. Often, I feel it’s the world working against me saying, “Listen to me, you dumb brat, I’m trying to tell you something VERY IMPORTANT!!!!”
I finally listened to it, as I was finishing up some re-organization I was doing, and then, I began to write up this story… to wonder am I supposed to be writing about it? Is that the big life lesson? Surely not. (Don’t follow along, because you’ll only give yourself a headache and if you followed that logic and I gave you a headache, my apologies.)
Scrooged film Songs search for me, just as I search for them. Does this ever happen to you? Goodness, I hope so, or this seems awfully strange to read. Maybe those I care the most for will understand why the song was searching for me all day long yesterday. Perhaps not. I’m a little fuzzy on it myself, truth be told.
The Christmas Miracle of Jonathan Toomey ipod
There are days when songs follow me from the radio to my iPod to my computer back to my iPod, but rarely are they so insistent about being listened to. Rarely, do I put them on the back burner, as well. Usually about the third time in rotation, I’ll just go with it, listen to it, so that the song will stop searching for me, so that fatedom can say it did its job, so that the world can stop nudging me along its course. I’m getting there, I swear.
Maybe this time I was afraid of getting there, though. Maybe this time, getting there meant confronting things that I did not want to really confront, ideas too scary to even be considered? Maybe this time I had to realize I was what was holding me back and not any other force. Maybe I had to admit to being broken on a level and that I had no idea how to put the pieces back together.
Maybe that’s more frightening, whether the thought comes from a song or the universe or not.
Maybe, this time, I was afraid that the message cut deeper than I was willing to hear. Maybe I thought I could do it all on my own. Maybe the universe wasn’t hearing anything of my lies that I thought I had been ready all along. Maybe I needed to confront those demons. Yeah, I probably did and hopefully I did.
The worst part of it all is, usually when songs follow me along through the course of a day or several days, usually it’s all a subconscious act. Honestly? I’m just grateful my Nano didn’t feel the need to chase me down in a dream and throw the earphones into my ears and force me to listen to the song. It’s so much easier when I go willingly, or so my mind believes, but usually the reality isn’t so different from the dream, now is it?
So, now that I’ve gotten the message, I’m just wondering what happens next.
Or perhaps the universe will send me another song I’ll ignore again, until it, too, chases me down and forces me to listen. It usually plays itself out… in one way or the other.
Most of all, though, maybe “This Year’s Love” is just what the universe is sending me and what a beautiful love it is turning out to be.
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